In the end

well...to put into simple words. i got attacked by a fucking milkshake machine. that is all. wait, you want to know how? i pushed the pump button which filled the dispensing things with pressure then when i went to pour a milkshake boom, it exploded and milkshake was everywhere. ><

my fucking trifle!

okay so my day went from not so good to downright stupid. my sister left the bologneise out and when i go to eat some. it is covered in fruit flies= no lunch. yeh that was okay. because you know there is trifle in the fridge. trifle is. jelly, cake and fruit then covered in whipped cream and custard. my favourite thing ever!!!!! okay so i open the fridge see my trifle bowl go and scoop some out to eat and guess what. its fucking frozen. my trifle is frozen. i cant believe it, nothing else in the fridge is. was it a prank. i don't think so. my blood is boiling right now. i have 30 minutes till i have to go to work. and i don't get trifle. i am soooooo mad.

oh? thats lovely

well. life wasn't to good today. so i went and saw my doctor-who told me to see that counselor. so i developed my pictures and went to my counselor. we had a nice conversations. talked about my issues and it felt nice. BUT. when i was walking home i saw a crow. it looked at me and i felt sad. i looked in its eyes and saw that it was hurt. Then i noticed it was covered in those nasty big black ants. i wanted to help it. but what the fuck can yah do. to a frightened bird. all it gonna do is run away from you,  so i walked on and ignored it >.< i hope it gets all those ants off. but then there are too many crows in this valley to begin with they be eatin all the little birds. the circle of life strikes again.  whenever- black eyed peas. is the song im listening to right now. i like this song, and i think thats what i need. i need someone to love me forever, and who will be there for me (whenever i need them) whether they are on skype, whether i call them or spontaneously knock at their door. my counselor told me that i am struggling from isolation. am i? i think so. hmmmm. not sure how to end this post. but ............pshuuuuuuummmmmmmmm

nice seein u

i went on an hour run; why? i dunno just bored i wanted to run to windermere but i got to timber ridge; got bored and ran back. then i got bored of running so i walked. i walked to the coffee works, where i got bored of walking and music so i sat and drank an orange juice and stared at the passing cars. then you cycled past. >.< and i felt sick so i walked to a&w where i got bored of walking again and talked to the people that was working about Harry Potter. got bored of doing that so i carried on my journey home this time i ran. i got to sobeys and went in to see my mother we talked then i went and talked to a cashier. got bored of that so i left. ran to jalaird got bored and walked across the field on my hands. walked the rest of the way home on my feet. when i got home i sat down on the couch. got bored of that so i updated my blog ><

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i hate being in love.
 i mean the feeling of mush i get when i see you, or talk to you feels awesome!
 but the after taste of that feeling, when you leave and i realise whats going to happen its makes me sick to the stomache. i threw up when i got home from the pools last night ><
make it stop.

hehehe

im talking to you on skype right now. i have butterflies in my stomache ><

i want you

someone asked me "if there was anything in the world that you could have, what would it be." at first i didn't know what to say. but now that i have thought about it. i want you, nothing/ no one else. just you. but i know i'm not gonna get you, so i suppose i can carry on my life full of hopes and dreams and meaningless signs. but guess what. soon we will be going camping together with a few others, and that will be fun. because just being with you makes everything better. oh how i wish you would come on skype more often. that is all i have to say. i want you.

my Utopia

in a perfect world:

1. radios would be only for talk shows
2. ipods only had music.
3. cinemas were for movies
4. tv's had kids programs in the morning, comedies and food programs during the day, cop shows during the night(csi/criminal minds, e.t.c)
5. there was no religon. people believed in themselves and not in some higher power,
6. being different would be more acceptable
7. noone was an extremist,
8. people didnt deliberately brake or burn things
9. there would be more artsy graffti
10. drawings/ paintings/ photos would be hung on every wall,
11. humans reproduced at a much much slower rate
12. animals stayed in the wild
13. humans could get there protein from another natural source (that doesnt involve killing)
14. there were no zoo's
15. humans wouldnt even think about hurting another person
16. there was no legal drinking age
17. people wouldnt be to pessimistic or optimisitic
18. people were happy when they ordered there junk food
19. there would be no taxes
20. everyone went online/skype at the same time
21. school would be more fun
22. friends would always be there for you whenever you needed them
23. every house looked different on the outside and on the in
24. street names were more original
25. clouds always had an interesting shape
26. there would be an amazing sunrise and sunset every day
27. mountains were always snow covered
28. it snowed: nov, december, jan
29. it rained, april, may, june
30. every other day it would be sunny, with a slight cool breeze, and a couple of clouds
31. there was no rules,
32.  people had more common sense
33. vehicles were solar powered
34. crystals grew faster
35. the world wouldnt of been nearly destroyed by our elders
36. there would be many conflicts...none of which would result in war
37. people would keep there promises
38. sexuality would be like the government thingy... (gays far left... straights far right...and the majority would be bi in the middle)
39. no such thing as acne
40. everyone had a job that contributed to society
41. there would be wireless internet acces EVERYWHERE
42. semi colons didnt exist/ punctuation didnt matter because people would just know when to breathe
43. there would be no cutting down tress of anykind...paper magically appears
44. people shut the door when they go to the washroom\
45. thats all i have so far....

Ruuqo…

RUUQO

• He is a male long haired Chihuahua.
• Answers to Ruuqo (roo-ko)or anyone in a relatively high pitched voice acting excited and clapping their hands.
• He can sit…that's about it. But he will sit still on anything (like a skateboard)
• He is really cute and sleeps ALL the time.
• He can swim like a champ, but he looks like a wet rat when he comes out of the water.
• He was a Great Dane in a past life, so he thinks he can take on any dog; big or really big (everything is big to him)
• He has a voice and is very opinionated, he will often stand by your feet or sit in your lap and sing.
• He isn't lost, I just wanted to show you how awesome my dog is J

set fire to the rain

But I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

When laying with you I could stay there
Close my eyes, feel you here forever
You and me together, nothing is better
~Adele