Jelly Fish
take some jelly. and make me a sammich.
Sunday 1 April 2012
from virgin to sex addict in one night...
Monday 6 February 2012
I shouldn’t of done that I’m sorry. no one knows what I’m talking about but you. I hate myself for it i am completely and utterly ashamed of myself. I won’t let it happen again ever. I don’t know what to think anymore. well i do. i just. fuck. i don’t know what I’m saying. soo much self loathing going on. what do i do. no one is talking to me. well the people i want to talk to aren’t talking to me. no more.
Saturday 7 January 2012
huh
Friday 6 January 2012
I'll bang your congo if you shake my morroca
oh and how to tell if you are my best friend: you have broken something valuable to me. lol. honestly it is okay. I am not going to fret over accidents. accidents happen i was born wasn't i? anyway...
I am really debating going to this party. you upset me. and i dont want to see you. if i go i will have to see you. and anyway i have to go to cranbrook tomorrow and i have to work tonight. going will just make things complicated and i think i'm getting sick anyway.
fuck.
Thursday 5 January 2012
Friday 30 December 2011
Monday 26 December 2011
alone.
kay this being alone on holidays thing isn’t working out for me I’m not gonna be alone on new years eve or new years day cuz i have to work. but i swear if i am alone on valentines day i am going to kill something.
it shouldn’t be like that should it. (what have i done) when i ask you out you shouldn’t have to think about. well you are going to give me an answer before 2012. i hope its an answer that will make me smile (shit i have put myself in a stupid situation.) it probably isn’t but my magic 8 ball said that you would say yes. so maybe.
okay that was stupid. I didn’t get my photoshoot the woman never called back. so. i got all worked up over nothing.
i hate cooking. no i like it. i do. i just hate getting in the mood to cook something and realize you only have half of the ingredients. its stupid.
hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I’m so difficult. and confusing. and one minute i want this and the next minute i change my mind. one minute i am super happy next minute i am depressed. is this bipolar disorder? i looked at the symptoms and i have most of them. sooo. not going to assume anything, if i am my dr would tell me right|? i hate doctors and counsellors. i probably shouldn’t lie to them should i? oh well.
i got new deoderant and it smells different and really good. you can’t smell it right now, but when you next smell it you will love it. i do
this is a long blog post about kind of nothing.
oh i have lots of books, so i will read.
P.s. did it really fucking shock you when i told you i was thinking about you? i do. quite a lot.
grr
Sunday 25 December 2011
ah.
yeh Christmas eve might of been, perhaps the worse night in a couple of months. i might of done something regrettable. but thats the past. christmas day was okay. we watched about 3 movies. I now really dislike tom felton. but he is sooo gah. kay, my brother got a justin bieber CD. lol i thought i was the queer one…. anyway. feeling pretty good. got an e reader. from my dad. then found out my mum had ordered one too…this could be awkward. so now i have to choose between them. my mums is purple…lol. can i have both? I will eventually have enough books probably. hah. whatever, i see you have a cell phone, guess what. i don’t really want it. do you know what. i don’t even want to date you. just kinda wanna make out and have a little sex. thats all. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK. horny teen over here okay… i guess i will just have to wait. i hate waiting…okay. sooooo. i am not going to ever spend Christmas eve alone ever again. it was really painful. tomorrow is my photoshoot. hopefully. kinda nervous. oh well i get money and experience out of it. so wish me luck!!!!! well, peace out. gotta go drink some tea.