alone.

kay this being alone on holidays thing isn’t working out for me I’m not gonna be alone on new years eve or new years day cuz i have to work. but i swear if i am alone on valentines day i am going to kill something.

it shouldn’t be like that should it. (what have i done) when i ask you out you shouldn’t have to think about. well you are going to give me an answer before 2012. i hope its an answer that will make me smile (shit i have put myself in a stupid situation.) it probably isn’t but my magic 8 ball said that you would say yes. so maybe.

okay that was stupid. I didn’t get my photoshoot the woman never called back. so. i got all worked up over nothing.

i hate cooking. no i like it. i do. i just hate getting in the mood to cook something and realize you only have half of the ingredients. its stupid.

hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I’m so difficult. and confusing. and one minute i want this and the next minute i change my mind. one minute i am super happy next minute i am depressed. is this bipolar disorder? i looked at the symptoms and i have most of them. sooo. not going to assume anything, if i am my dr would tell me right|? i hate doctors and counsellors. i probably shouldn’t lie to them should i? oh well.

i got new deoderant and it smells different and really good. you can’t smell it right now, but when you next smell it you will love it. i do

this is a long blog post about kind of nothing.

oh i have lots of books, so i will read.

P.s. did it really fucking shock you when i told you i was thinking about you? i do. quite a lot.

grr