YOU. What’s your problem?

i guess that's why they invented alcohol. to avoid awkward video game parties. i really get the feeling of being loved when i’m around my friends. things like “noooooo Thomas is coming.” and “well im not picking him up.” are the things i hear in the background when i call to see where the party was. and then when i get there. YOU don't even say “hi” or “hey” or “what’ up.” you completely ignored me. completely. i was biting my tongue the entire time you were there, and then when you left there was  no goodbyes. dude that was the last time that i am going to see you for like three fucking months. everyone else who left gave out a couple of hugs to people and told them that they would be missed. but you, you get up off the couch.state the fact that you are leaving then leave. and as you walk up the stairs you shout. “goodbye everyone.”  maybe you react differently to different situations. maybe you got in your car and bawled your eyes out on your drive home. maybe your lying in bed regretting not saying a proper goodbye. maybe. or maybe your a heartless soul who plays video games, watches porn and works. 

hmmm, i wonder. there was someone else. someone who gave me an unexpected hug, someone who walked me out of the house, someone who wished me a safe walk home, and someone who smiled when i walked in. maybe just maybe. no Thomas get that out of your head!!!!!!!

in movies you always see the person who falls in love, you see the person who doesn’t like the person who fell in love with them, and then there is the person on the side. the perfect one, the one who likes the one who falls in love.  life is full of too many “what if’s”  and “maybe’s”

All i really know is that i am staying in Invermere for one more whole year, i will be staying with four of my best and quite possibly my only friends. those of which i will be going to school with. band is going to be really weird…wait no. school is going to be really weird, its going to feel empty. but i will survive. i have some pretty cool teachers on my schedule. i also have a nice linear spare. which is going to be my me time and if someone wants to join so be it, they can join me. i am going to attempt to read the inheritance cycle again. ad so when the fourth and final book comes out in November i wont have to rush and read them.  <<<gosh I'm so excited. I'm also quite excited for Pottermore. mainly so i can officially know what house I'm in, i kinda hope its ravenclaw or gryffindor.  no offence but i hope to god it aint hufflepuff.