hmm

i'm feeling rather lonely. what i really need right now is my cat. but its been two weeks and still no sign. so im getting a negative feeling on her return. as if i havent gone through enough shit this year. what else is going to happen? ive got three months left till this year is over. what ever. i just want to ignore everything but i find it so hard. so hard. im losing my mind here.i need a break. a break from this town. a break from life. a break from you. a break from him. a break from this body. a break from my mind. is there a vacation i can take that can satisfy all my needs? certainly not.maybe im over exaggerating. maybe just maybe. the world will end tomorrow. well at least for me.