ACK

tomorrow is August.
which means....
one more month to spend with the majority of my friends before they leave too fulfill their dreams.
...
i promise i wont cry, i remember 2 years ago, when the same thing happened. i balled my eyes out. not in front of anyone. but behind my closed bedroom door. music blasting. so no one would hear. i have a feeling this year might be slightly worse.

but can i do it.
ive been having a hard time believing in myself lately.

crying does release serotonin. so maybe it isnt such a bad idea crying myself to sleep.

i know an even better idea. lets not even think about it until september. lets spend this month getting drunk. having fun. going out. hanging out. watching movies. eating food. camping. and all the awesome things i like to do with the people i love.
then.
when september comes. ill have four days before you leave... and. and. i really dont know how ill feel. lets hope i dont kill myself. ha ha ha...